The pandemic has been relentless for mothers, many of whom have been stuck in an endless cycle of work and child care. Some Massachusetts mothers gathered to do something about it.
In Boston, many mothers were exhausted. The pandemic had been so draining that they wanted to scream.
But they had to hold it in because they had children to raise, careers to build and chores to finish. For nearly two years, they have been trapped.
But on a night this month, about 20 mothers ditched their duties. They left their children and homes behind and headed to a high school football field.
One by one, they emerged from the shadows and gathered at the 50-yard line.
They stood in a circle under the soft lights, and for 20 glorious minutes they screamed and screamed and screamed, said Sarah Harmon, a therapist, yoga teacher and mother who organized the gathering.
Their voices, which carried years of pain and rage that they could finally release, merged into an anguished chorus, according to videos of the gathering.
“It was so nice to feel out of control for the first time,” one mother told Ms. Harmon, who lives in Boston.
One of the participants, Jessica Buckley, said many of the mothers were unaware of The New York Times’s primal scream hotline, which is available to mothers who want to yell, laugh, cry or vent for a solid minute.
Ms. Harmon, 39, first held what she called a primal scream gathering last year, after her clients had suggested it. She counsels mothers who, like herself, have gone through varying stages of despair, anger and anxiety as the pandemic has lingered.
Ms. Harmon, a mother of 3- and 5-year-old daughters, said that her children were driving her “absolutely nuts” during the pandemic.
They questioned why the pandemic was still going on and why children under 5 could not be vaccinated, said Ms. Harmon, the founder of the School of MOM, a mindfulness website for mothers. (Children under 5 have still not been approved to get a coronavirus vaccine.)
That is why the gathering was so cathartic, she said. For once, the mothers could just let go.
“It’s just amazing how light you can feel after you do that,” she said on Sunday. “I slept better.”
At the football field, Ms. Harmon signaled the start of a new round of screaming by raising two light-up unicorn wands that belong to her daughters.
The gathering, she said, unfolded in five parts, the first four of which were a normal scream, a round of swearing, a “free-for-all” of screams or shouts, and a scream in honor of the mothers who were too busy to attend.
Some of the mothers put their all into the screaming, hunching over and throwing their arms back, according to videos Ms. Harmon shared.
The fifth part was a contest to see who could scream the longest. The winner, who screamed for about 30 seconds, was Ms. Buckley, a 36-year-old therapist and mother of two.
“I probably could’ve kept screaming,” she said on Sunday. “It’s been a really, really tough time.”
She said that, as a mother of 2- and 4-year-old daughters, she felt left behind.
“We’re still trying to navigate quarantines and stuff when the country seems to have moved on,” she said.
She is one of millions of mothers in the United States who have confronted a mental health crisis during the pandemic. So many mothers have been brought to the breaking point as they juggle more child care and domestic work along with their own lives.
Everyone has been touched by the pandemic in some way, but mothers often have no place to escape and no time to take a break, said Dr. Ellen Vora, a psychiatrist in Manhattan.
Mothers, unlike their children, usually do not have the time or the space to have a meltdown, Dr. Vora said.
“If you have two to three years of pent-up pressure,” she said, “going and being in a community of other moms and having a big release in the form of a scream is really healthy.”
Ms. Harmon said that she had received an overwhelming response to the gathering from other mothers. Many older mothers told her they used to scream alone in a closet.
But she says a new generation of mothers have normalized the frustrations of their roles — leading to screaming in an open field.
Groups across Massachusetts have now invited Ms. Harmon to lead primal screams.
“The scream resonated for people because it normalized their anger,” she said. “It’s been very powerful and quite healing.”